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Monday, March 31, 2014

I’ve been at a crossroads...

Hi all, you may have realised I’ve been MIA for quite some time on my blog. Just about the longest time I’ve ever gone without writing you guys. Truth is, I’ve been stuck in a ruck…a lack of motivation to write. Although I have lots of new products to review for you guys and different looks I’ve been trying, I just wasn’t able to focus long enough to sit here and create a post I thought worthy of your eyes.

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I’ve been going through a number of things here in my personal life since finishing uni. I had a lot of questions to be answered and ideas to ponder on. I wondered if the career goal I had set for myself was really fitting of me, how I would get a job in my country, if I had chose the wrong degree all along, how would things work out in the next 5 years, furthermore the next year. If I needed to go learn a more marketable skill, if I should go back to school right away, wait and stick to my current job? I wondered what else was out there for me to do and lots more. I’m not sure if this is the anxiety a lot of others feel when they’re finally finished university, but it came as a shock to me, because I was always one to plan and say I wanted to to this and that. Yet still when it was all done, I just was in wonder as I realised many of my experiences up to that point had altered my way of thinking and left my mind craving a more varied path.

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This all sounds kind of crazy as I write it out, I mean studying for almost 4 years to attain a degree isn’t an easy task and I definitely am not saying I don’t appreciate my degree, but I am a little lost as to where to go next. I’ve luckily been holding down a part-time job, but I don’t feel like it’s my fit. I’m so scared of being like the countless others working in fields they despise, just for the dollar bill. But for now, I’m there and I’m trying to make the most of it. I am still as in love as ever with Chemistry, especially Food science, but in my on-going research in the many fields of Food Science (and jobs), I am still uncertain as to where to begin. Like this shouldn’t be happening now, I should know by now, right? I’ve even gone so far as to think about going into cosmetics chemistry as a career, seeing as I love cosmetics as well. But who knows, I just hope I get a sign very soon. Until then, I’ll keep doing my research on jobs, hoping and praying I come across some to apply to. (Sadly, it may be outside of my lovely Barbados.)

As for blogging, it’s been hard to write especially with all of these thoughts and anxiety riding my mind. I’m very sorry to have failed you lovely readers for almost 2 months. At the ending of March, I said to myself, this can no longer go on. I owe it to you and myself to keep up with this hobby. This is my relaxation and one of my loves. Writing is something I do to express myself, in ways I cannot in person and the fact that I can talk all over my face about makeup and not have to worry, makes me even happier. So stay tuned for the return to your previously scheduled programme folks. My love ones have been telling me to not let life stress me out, and you know what? They’re right! SO back to posting reviews, swatches, makeup looks, selfies and all the goodness that comes with blogging starts back now.

I hope you’re all still out there waiting for me. Welcome back to the Chrisamor Goodie Jar!

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